I don’t know why I am shocked or even surprised! I know I am naive, always have been and probably always will be. Maybe it’s because I always want to see the good in the world, maybe its because I grew up wanting for nothing, food, shelter, love, affection, education and a whole lot of friends who have supported me and been there for me when I needed them the most, it’s probably a question I will never find the answer to and I am okay with that.
What I am not okay with is realizing and seeing that girls have babies while living on the street, they raise their babies on the street and that baby then becomes a street child (boy or girl) and the cycle continues and continues. There has to be a way to end this cycle, I just need to find it! Doing our street feedings and helping the children and families living on the streets has always been my passion, I chose this life, I made a conscious decision to help and have been giving it my all for a long time now. When we do our street feedings I am happy, happy because I know we are helping to feed a child that wouldn’t get food otherwise, I am getting to know their stories and their faces brighten even for just one day.
However, seeing the babies lined up on the street with their mothers and knowing that unless we do something to help, these babies will have no chance at a successful future. My heart literally breaks in half, I don’t cry, I continue to hand out the food, and clothing that we have brought for them. I see their smiles, I see past the dirt and garbage piled high beside them, I look into their eyes, I talk with their mothers, I get to know them in ways that they haven’t been spoken to in a very long time, I give them respect as they do with me, I hold their babies in my arms and give as much love as I have to give! Only when I am home and alone do I allow the tears to come, they flow freely and I don’t try to stop them. I am not crying for these women, babies and children living on the street, I am crying because I want to do more, I want to help more and we are restricted so badly right now.
I know it doesn’t sound like much but to these women and children its a whole world opening for them, we give them hope that there is a way off the street, and we try our hardest to make this happen for them, they deserve in the least to have an opportunity to be safe, to be loved, to have food, and basic shelter. They are no different than anyone else in the world, life has just handed them a hard hand but together we can make a difference, just one child at at time.